tick tock tick tock

kinda like that song by J. Timberlake and Madonna...and for some reason it's been on when i'm driving home from work! heheh..what a way to end the day huh..gosh, it's already reaching end of June and half the year's gone already! WTF?!! where the hell has the time gone?

rather than complaining about my pathetic life in this post, i'm going to take the other route..and think about other worthwhile things like where should we all go for our next holiday?! now that's a thought..my kids have grown up to know mickey and minnie quite well and the idea of meeting them in person would be an exciting one. and i've heard raving reviews about the disneyland in HK...so how about it? sounds like a good idea..

after coming back from our syrian trip two weeks ago, i think i've changed my mind about visting morocco..some people say once you've seen one (country) in the middle east, you've seen 'em all! and i think it is true to some extent...like with istanbul and syria, there's really not much difference..except turkish people like their bread more than syrians who prefer their beriyani rice. and the next time i go for a holiday, i hope it won't have to be like a boot camp!! hahaha..that's the thing with group tours..it's worse than working...they make you suffer with the morning calls and the regimented breakfast times and pee hours etc....

any nice ideas to go for a holiday? please send your suggestions to me!

when there is no more silver lining in the cloud

Hello people..

Excuse me for my long silence...I've had a lot of things going on in my life..some of which I am still unhappy about..in fact, i've been bombed with a string a bad news that it came to a point where I felt there is just nothing else to look forward to in life..But thank God, there's my children..and my hubby...who are they people i yearn for especially in times of trouble. Let's just put this way...i could really use some good news because all of these sadness and disappointments are just too blrghhh..

which brings me to ask why are some people are just plain evil? oh well..what's the point..at the end of the day, justice will prevail..

anyway, don't have must to write about now..life basically sucks right now..will write again when there's something (good) to write about. until then, toodles!!

i'm so bloody pissed off with the weird way the pc sometimes behaves. i was working on a paper for about an hour (just as i finished my earlier post and getting all rajin, only to be bogged down again..with this stupid virus maybe..) when there it was, a window just popped out of nowhere telling me that i can't save my document and then followed by a bunch of other annoying error windows which finally left me with my jaws almost touching the floor..and before i knew it, my work has been saved under "rescued document" in text format. and when i try to open this file, i'm just even more annoyed by the string of ???????????????????? replacing the beautifully constructed sentences which i've poured my sweat for the past hour. WTF?!!! ok, anyone please help me retrieve this file or witness me go crazy....because i think i will lose my edge if i don't get anything done soon!!!! HELPPPPPPPPP!!!!!

meet me, the procrastinator

what is with me...i'm feeling so blrgghh at the moment..why can't i concentrate with what i intended to do earlier during the day? is it because i am experiencing a rather low morale a.k.a unmotivated...during the day, i would be all pyched up to get things all in order and done with, but as the day passes by, i'm moving at around 30km/hr which is really pathetic..gosh what's happening to me?? there's just no desire for me to get work done..FAST!!!! i also have the internet to partly blame for my sluggishness.

anyhow, i am going to do something about it...starting from hahahah..tonight? i'll try...perhaps tomorrow..what's slowing me down? maybe the fact that i am playing the guessing game..of my fate...of where i'll be by the end of this year...this wait is a bugging factor that's making me all procrastinat-ish....but i shouldn't be like this...i have to prove that each day matters..so that's why i'm going to start (yeah keep on emphasizing that and i'll still not start anywhere)

ok...i do have a list of things to do..i just have to put them in the right order, and avoid to try and do ALL at once..first on the list: start writing that freaking article i've been meaning to write for that particular conference i'm yearning to go!!!! i think i'll just leave it at that..and then think about the other things in my list...

ohhh on another note...my baby boy (not so baby anymore) will be 4 in a couple of days..and i've just baked a cake for him to bring to school...and the smell....my God...i never knew i could bake so well.. hihihi...good night folks...i'm trying to make something outta myself now...

I've been tagged...

The Rules:

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules

2. List eight (8) random facts about yourself.

3. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.

4. Let them know they've been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

List eight (8) random facts about myself:

Ok before i start, I'm not sure if the content of the following 8 facts about me should be kept at a PG13 rating or beyond...so i guess i'll just write whatever pops into mind!!! ;)

1. i have a thing for green things...most of the things i buy would be in green. except i have yet to own a pair of green bra! haha that would be a first.

2. my teeth seriously needs BrightSmile treatment...this is what u get from being a coffee addict..all those stains need more than just regular brushing..

3. again..it's about my teeth...i've been wanting to wear braces since forever but kept getting denied by the orthodontists who claimed that my teeth are perfectly fine where they are and should not be subjected to any tampering or the like. i guess i have also pretty much gave up that idea since i'm already in my 30s...and don't think my teeth will move around too much from now on...

4. my vision is deteriorating...so much for having perfect vision in my younger days..nowadays, i'm squinting my eyes when i've done a tad too much reading..and also whilst driving at night..*sigh*...getting old

5. i had my appendix removed when i was 10. left a tiny little scar..

6. i once shaved my head like GI Jane...just for kicks..ironically, it was during that hedious hairstyle period that my husband (my bf then) asked me to be his gf...

7. i've never taken contraceptive pills....ever...

8. I've always wanted to be a dancer...

it's 2 weeks into the new year. did i make any resolutions this year? i guess...but as always, they're not written anywhere including here..because writing them down would mean you are somehow stuck to it and not being able to achieve them would be quite disappointing. so, my way of doing resolution is just to keep in mind what i want to do and counter check it every now and then..i think i'm quite at par with what i have set my mind to do..so yeah, this year, i will be all that i can be!!! (macam pernah dengar je..ha ha). okaylah, i'll just share some of them with you..but not the specifics ok..just generally...i will try to be a better muslim..by doing what i have been thought to do...and with that, i hope to be a better wife, mom, daughter, friend, etc, etc..i hope to squash the ego we humans too often are guilty of having, even when we think we don't have any ego (that denial itself is an ego...see). i hope the children will be well, insyaAllah (this is not a resolution, btw...it's my hopes and prayers from Allah swt), and that our lives will be richer with many blessed moments and joyous ocassions, Aameen.

oklah...running out of ideas now..oh yea...this weekend...marked my 5th anniversary to my dear husband. for the first time, he got me roses and a card (usually he would get other things) which really made my day, because it's been a long time since i got any flowers from that hubby of mine. he's one of those guys who thinks giving flowers is a waste of money..since the flowers are going to get crinkled and dried up..and there goes your money! at least that's how he is after getting married...before...well, i remember he got me two dozens of roses sent to my dormroom door with a little romantic note too...hah! that was of course, the beginning of it all...and then, there were other ocassions, like sorry for being such an idiot ones, or simply no-reason-at-all flowers, which occurred more during the courting days..and then..the number of roses began to shrink..just like the flowers..haha..but the love...excitingly enough is growing to beautiful dozens of roses, alhamdulillah..no special dinner or anything romantic for this year..nothing of that sort..instead, we transformed our lawn into a camp side with a tent, a pool big enough to fit 10 adults (but only four of us hung out in there: me, hubby and our two kids) and a bbq of succulent lamb, chicken, potato salad, corn on the cob, vadai (courtesy of pasar malam), karipap (also from pasar malam..this one is my fav karipap of all time..it's the pusing type) and lots of other knick knacks....and me..i got him a card too...got him something else earlier..so that was his anniversary gift lah..May Allah grant us a happy and ever-lasting marriage and many more kids, inshaAllah..Happy Anniversary to you, bie..(ha ha..why am i wishing him here, he does't even read my blog)

coffee anyone?

i am a self-confessed coffee-holic...i just can't get thru the day without one caffeine fix, usually at night...at times like this...when i'm on the computer..either for work, or pleasure..i would get coffee samples at supermarket eventhough i know damn well how the regular Nescafe tastes like...just to give a little "perk" up my brains...aaahh..the taste of coffee..i like them hot, creamy, and aromatic..don't really like the cold concoctions..they take too long to finish, for me at least, because i'd have to sip them slowly in order not to get brain freeze...right now i'm having...i think it's called bonton coffee or something..has a green label on it..about to finish this bottle...and then am thinking of getting another kind of coffee..the 3in1 or 4 or 5 in 1s are not that bad either for my taste buds..like the Alicafe...it all started with my hubby..he was the one who recommended it to me..i still don't know the effects of females taking tongkat ali related things except that it's a sure way to get me to stay awake for a couple of hours at night!! are there any known effects by the way? like maybe an increase in the testosterone level (do women have testosterones???!!) anyway, it has a nice taste, and smell..and i'd drink that on nights that i feel rather sleepy...on nights like this one, ie. nights solely devoted for wasting time, i would have this type of coffee i'm having..the bonton coffee...there's another one which comes from my hubby's coffee collection..kopi jantan..he thinks it's the equivalent to western's almond coffee or the like..i've tasted it...but don't quite fancy it...alicafe is definitely better, hands down. you may be wondering if i have ever tried the female version of alicafe a.k.a the kacip fatimah...yes, i have...but i find it so-so..doesn't give me the boost that i look for in a coffee..ohh..and of course, the kopitiam coffee, although i much prefer the one that is mixed with tea or the "cam" as some might call it. the tea is also to die for...hmm...thinking of getting my kopitiam fix this week. have a good week everyone!

happy nu yaaa!

Hello...

well, it's already coming to the third day of the new year everyone...mine started with a minor hiccup...but let's not get into details..i'm just trying to forget about it..and create new memories...i'm back at work today, and needless to say, my initial intention to start doing some serious work was successfully shattered by the persistently annoying human being in the face of this earth. i wonder if there is any ounce of intelligence in his tiny tiny brain..anyway, thank you to those who dropped by my blog and gave me words of encouragement. at least i know i'm not alone =) thanks guys! that's right, i'm keeping my chins up..hopefully, things will look a little better in a few weeks... and dude...when are u going to learn to speak more effectively???!

oh yeahhh..my new year getaway to the land of cik siti wan kembang was absolutely wonderful...and it is indeed my kinda place to shop...i was naturally mesmerized with all the colorful batik stuff and tudung and the local food like nasi kerabu, nasi dagang, laksam, akok, ketupat palas..and lots more....here are some pictures...( i really need to study now for my class tomorrow, hence the short-cut)

laksam...one of my favorite kelantanese dishes

this was the lala which was just ok lah..

this was the kerabu kaki (ayam)...not really my kind of kerabu

and of course..the yummy and easy to make, nasi kerabu